So, I realized something this weekend, something that you probably already know if you’ve been reading this blog, or if you know me, and something that I have suspected but it was confirmed this weekend: “At some point I became a douchebag.” Let me tell you the story of how I made this discovery.
Sunday, was my niece’s birthday party, and I was sitting out in my sister’s backyard with my family, eating and talking, and my aunt and uncle began talking about a little kid toy couch that they have from their daughters, and want to get rid of it, but its too nice to throw out. I told them, I would take it.
“But, it’s purple…” my uncle said. (Just to note, the tone of this statement was matter-of-fact, not negative.)
“That’s ok,” I replied.
“Logan’s enlightened,” my aunt told my uncle.
That’s when, I said what I think might be the douchiest thing I’ve ever spoken. If I wasn’t a full-blown douchebag before when I spoke I crossed that threshold.
“It’s not that he’s enlightened, it’s just that I’m trying not to encode him, so I don’t have to decode him later.”
My sister walked over entering the conversation at exactly that moment and said what I’m sure everyone was thinking.
“What the fuck did you just say?”
Her genuine confusion, having not heard any of the lead up, took me out, and immediately I realized how I sounded, and my brain started searching all of the other times I had spewed some pretentious crap and no one had called me on it.
So now, after a few days, I’ve come to a conclusion. The sentiment behind statement, the point I was trying to make, I think was correct, but it was said in such a way that sucks all of the credibility out of it.
I’ve often talked about how I think it’s not enough to just be on what you think is the right side of the argument, but you need to present the best possible case for that argument, and by making it sound self-important we deflate the our own cause.
I will be trying to work harder to continue to express what I think is right, but hopefully in a way that doesn’t make other people’s eyes roll, and make them think “what the fuck did he just say.”