It’s been a while since I’ve written anything original for this blog, and I’m sorry for that. As you probably know, I’m currently trying to make Chocolate Diamond Media a real job, make a feature film, and I’m working a day job, and have my family to spend time with. So that’s part of it.
The other big part of it, is that I don’t write well in the fall. This is a tough time of year for me, and even right now (the last year or two) when I’m at my most productive, the fall is tough. I’ve talked a lot about seasonal depression before on here, and this is that time of year for me. I’m not nearly as bad as most years. The truth is that there is more daylight down in North Carolina than in Massachusetts, and for the last month, I’ve been waking up nearly every morning an hour earlier than I used to, in order to go run. These have done wonders for the more overt symptoms of depression, namely I don’t feel sad/bad. And it has helped me to want to be more productive, and more motivated than I would normally. That productiveness has translated into editing, and filming, and forcing myself to work, but it has not helped as much with writing.
When I get to this part of the year, I don’t have any shortage of ideas, they still click into my head at the same rate as the rest of the year, but for some reason I have a hard time pushing them out into words. I’ve started 10 blog posts, and as many short story/novel/film ideas, in the last week, and got no more than a sentence deep before abandoning them, but had pretty clear ideas, just couldn’t get them started. Imagine you’re in a train car, and you see the train tracks laid out before you, and you know once you get on them you’re going to chug away and ride off into the sunset, but there’s 100 feet of tracklessness that you need push the train car across before starting on that. That’s what I’ve been doing sitting on the train, staring at the tracks, and not sure how to get the cart on them. Today, for some reason, when I woke up, the train was on the track, and so I’m pumping the coals into the fire (it’s an old train because I like the visual representation better, don’t worry coal burning is totally clean in my metaphor world) while I have track in front of me.
I hope that this will keep going, and when I wake up tomorrow I’ll be on the tracks again, but I guess I won’t know until tomorrow.
In the mean time, if you’re in the mood to see some of the creativity (non-written) that I’ve been producing while I haven’t been writing, please go check out the Chocolate Diamond Media YouTube channel. I think I’m starting to get things into a groove over there, and there is some of the same sensibility (although an honest effort to remain unpolitical over on that channel).